Why Do I Sabotage Myself?

Well Mike had a terrific week once again. He lost 4 more pounds. He is only 20lbs away from his goal weight. I am so proud of him. He is working out great at the gym as well. Now me on the other hand. I am not doing so great. I gained 1lb this week. But I can't blame anyone but myself. I start out so dedicated and I work out strong at the gym, but then I come home and am overwhelmed with a sugar craving beyond all sugar cravings. And there goes my willpower right out the window. But I feel the world is out to get me to.lol This week the kids brought home a box of chocolate bars to sell for their school. Just what I need. Chocolate staring at me every hour of everyday. I think I can honestly hear them talking to me. "we are so good, come eat us, you love the taste of chocolate" lol. Well once again this Monday, I vowed to be strong and stick to my healthy eating. I had a little slip already and I felt so guilty. So I decided to burn off some extra calories. And ran in place for almost 20 minutes. I was so proud that I could do that. Especially with the way my ankles have been bothering me. So I hope I burnt enough calories to take care of my 'opps' and start my week fresh. I am going to try and run for 20 minutes every night this week and see how that helps with me weight loss. So wish me luck, send all your willpower to me cause I could use it. And we will see what next Monday says.

No weight change this week.

Well it seems that March Break had more of an effect on us than we thought. lol My eating habits were messed up all last week. Plus not to mention a 'pizza' night, and cake and ice cream for Matthew's birthday. Oh ya and Mike took us out to dinner to a buffet for Matthew's birthday dinner. So alas, I did not stick to my diet at all. So in all honesty, I am very happy that there was no weight change. I thought for sure that I would have gained a pound or two. Now that everyone is back to the normal routine, I am hoping to do really well next week on weight in to make up for this week's poor outcome. And as I mentioned everyone back to normal, after a busy day at school, I had three very tired, grouchy kids come home. Chetasia fell asleep on her bed around 4:30, and I had to wake her up at 7pm so she would sleep tonight. It is amazing what a week off does to everyone. lol But they really don't have too long before another 4-day weekend. Easter is almost here. Chetasia is excited because her birthday is on Good Friday this year, so she gets it off school. Now that March Break is done, it will be school summer holidays before we know it. Of course, I am ready for the warm sun to come out and make everything green again. But even though it is Spring in two days, I still got excited when it was snowing this morning. But don't tell anyone that, I would probably get shot. lol

Is there such a thing as too many kids?

Well today was the last official day of March Break. The kids are back in school on Monday. Which will probably start with many moans and groans. But I will be happy. This has been a busy week at the house. We never went anywhere special or did anything cool, but the kids all enjoyed their break. Probably because my house has been constantly filled with kids. First Caitlin had her best friend over night Tuesday. While Chetasia had three friends over to visit. Then Caitlin had 4 friends overnight on Wednesday. Matthew then had a friend spend the night Thursday night. Now on Friday Chetasia has 3 friends spending the night. And all the while kids have been in and out of our door so much I think the hinges will fall off. Since Mike had to work all of March Break like normal, I was left to fend for myself amongst the endless trail of pre-teens and teenages. You can only imagine what a kitchen can look like after four 13 year olds decide to make pancakes at 9 o'clock at night. I look forward to Sunday night, sitting relaxing on the couch just waiting for Monday morning at 8:30am when the children are gone to school, the house is quiet, and I can go back to bed and gather up on the sleep that I lost this week. Cause if you don't know.....when kids spend the night, they never go to bed when they are supposed to. You are still yelling at them to be quiet and go to sleep at 2 and 3 in the morning. How many weeks till summer break? I may need a padded room by then.

It's been another banner week

It seems losing 5lbs a week is our thing. This week I lost 1lb and Mike lost 4lbs. He is just amazing, plus he burns alot of calories at the gym. He is almost to his goal. And his body is toning up real sexy like. lol. I am happy with my 1lb loss. I had a couple weak moments last week. And I had Kentucky Fried Chicken for supper one night. And I know all that grease and fat was not good for me, but man was it good. I wish I could loss the calories like Mike. I tried running today on the treadmill, and within 1 minute my heart rate jumped to 156 bpm, and I was short of breath. Then I was only able to walk for 10 minutes today because my ankles were hurting so bad. So I went to the bicycle, to atleast continue some type of exercise. I am trying but am only burning around 100 calories compared to Mike's 400 calories. If only my body would jump on board with the new routine, I would be laughing. lol On another happy note though, today was beautiful out. A perfect spring day. I think it was around 17 C and sunny. The kids loved it. I saw Matthew first thing in the morning, and then not again till 5 oclock. Ravishing of course, but he smelled so good, like fresh air, and he had no problem going to sleep tonight. With a day like this it is hard to believe that we are suppose to get snow again on Friday. Well it is the 2nd day of March break, and I have heard "I'm bored" about 6 times already. I think they are going for a record this week. But now when I hear "I'm bored", I put them to work, so I am hoping that will curb those 2 words. Well it is 1am so I better go to bed. And dream about playing outside in the sun. Oh yeah one last thing. I had a wonderful surprise today. Rachel brought me over a dozen long stem red roses. They are so beautiful and smell so good. I really didn't deserve them for anything, but I am grateful for them just the same. Thank you very much Rachel. You made my day.

Hump Day

Nothing much new going on. I am feeling a bit better. Been really watching when and what I eat. Still waiting for my 'heart' doctor to call back with an appointment. Guess things aren't as important as I had thought. (which is a great thing !!).

So my new thing (you know me, always have to try something or other) is motorcycling. Mike has been 'buggin' me about getting my bike licence. He is dying to have someone to ride with. lol. So I have decided to go take my written, which is good for 3 months and see what I think of motorcycles. On Sunday, March 25 at Duke's Harley Davidson, they are having what they call a Women's Garage Party. They have interactive spaces set up to help women that have never dealt with motorcycles to learn more about them. Like where the brake and gas is. (something very important to learn)lol. It looks really interesting though, and I should learn lots. If I decide that I like it all, and would like to ride more often. I will then take a course to help me learn and then get my M2 licence. Mike is already talking about buying two bikes for us. Keeps saying how "hot" girls are on motorcycles. So I definitely want him looking my way. I will keep you all posted on the new bike news, and pray that I don't fall over my first time getting on.

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We lost 5lbs again this week.

But this week is even better than last, because I lost 3 of those pounds. I was so excited. It definitely helps to motivate me even more, seeing the pounds go. I still have a long way to go, but if I can steadily lose my average of 2lbs a week. I will be at my goal by my anniversary on November 21st. I do believe it was the Metformin that I now take that helped with the weight loss, but who cares, as long as it keeps going down, I will take it. We have been going to the gym 6 weeks now. And we have gone 3 times a week, for all 6 weeks. You should see the muscles in my arms......I am trying to pass Victoria with her big working arms. lol Now the journey continues. The best and safest thing is to keep a balance in your life, acknowledge the great powers around us and in us. If you can do that, and live that way, you are really a wise man. Euripides (484 BC - 406 BC)

Sorry I have been away

I just haven't been feeling like myself this last week. Nothing I could put my finger on. I am now taking medication for my diabetes, and then at my doctors appointment on Friday, I now have to take cholesteral medication. And my liver enzymes were elevated, which I knew, and told Dr. Prins. So we are just keeping an eye on it for now. But even though my Sarcoidosis was trying to bring me down. I made it to the gym my three times this last week. Today I had a bit of a scare. I went into a hypoglycemic (sp?) spell. Was terrible. Couldn't stop shaking, dizzy, head spinning. It lasted for about 20 minutes. All the while I was trying to eat something. Then I went and laid down to calm myself. So my lesson for today is to make sure that I eat regularly, and snack in between my meals. Well tomorrow is weigh day again. I will pray to the 'fat' gods. (just kidding Dad lol) Here's waiting for tomorrow.