Spirit Believer

Rebirth of my Blog!

2011-03-22T18:48:00.003-05:00

I have been deciding whether or not I just wanted to delete this blog. I haven't even looked at it in years. But just as I went to take this blog site off of my Facebook, I stoppped, and realized that this would be a great way to keep Mike (when he is out West) and the rest of the family, when we are out West. So here it is. I will try to comment on this blog more often and back in the habit.

My Baby Girl is 18 Now!

2009-04-07T12:21:00.003-05:00

Well it is true. My eldest daughter turned 18 yesterday. I can't believe it. Where has the time gone? She has grown into a wonderful, loving, respectful woman. I am very proud of her and her accomplishments. She plans on spending another year at home, and staying another year at high school. Iam sooooo ok with this plan, as I don't think I am ready to have her leave the home nest yet. It will be good to have her here with me while I undertake my weight loss journey. She will be a big help. Well that is it for now.....I love you Chetasia!

On My Way to a New Me!

2009-04-03T15:41:00.002-05:00

Well I took the first step and had a consultation with Barix Clinic for gastric bypass surgery. It went really well, and I am so excited about it. Today I went to see my family dr and had him sign the papers to get OHIP to cover the costs. He should be faxing those papers off this next week and I should hear something by the end of the month. I am hoping to be having my surgery in June sometime. I can't wait. I will try and post my journey on this blog so everyone can watch how I make out. Here's to the new me! On a sarc note.....I have been doing pretty good I think (knock on wood). Have gone for a few walks with the hubby, and after surgery I will continue that and hopefully start aquafit as well. Lets hope the sarc monster stays low while I have surgery and doesn't give me a hard time healing either.

Finally Over Another Cold

2009-03-09T21:42:00.002-05:00

Well out of the last two months, 6 weeks have been spent sick as a dog. It has gone through the household as well. I have been coughing so hard and relentless that I burst some blood vessels in my eye. Nice sight (no pun intended lol). My eyes are still bothering me. It turns out I have really dry eyes. I was given some gel drops, which really help, but I have to do them all the time to kept the discomfort down. I am still trying to lose weight. Seems a never ending fight. I weigh 240 lbs right now. I want to be 150 lbs. So that is 90 lbs to lose. Wow! I have been wanting to try this energy drink......5 hour energy I think it is called. I just don't think anyone can understand the cloud of no energy that surrounds me all the time. It is heavy and unlifting. So I am currious to see if this drink does anything. Cause I would love to have some more energy to carry on with normal activities of the day. Maybe help me lose some weight in the mean time. Anyway, I will continue to feel better, and watch over my sick kids.

The Eyes are Alive!

2009-02-25T12:05:00.003-05:00

Well, it has been an exciting couple of days. My eyes have been giving me a hard time. They are burning, and itchy, and feels like lots of pressure in them. Now with having Sarcoidosis and being Diabetic, your eyes are not something to mess around with. I have an app't set up for Friday morning. But with the way my luck is, by the time I get there, they eyes will be back to normal again, and nothing will be found. lol. If you have ever had the drops in your eyes that dilate them, and makes them feel pressure, that is kinda how mine feel right now. I also need a new prescription and I need bifocals. So I may be getting some new glasses while I am there too. That I am looking forward too. I will keep you updated as to how my app't goes.

Coming back to my blog!

2009-02-22T14:51:00.002-05:00

Well, I haven't been on here in a year and a half, if you can believe it. I got sucked into facebook and kinda let this blog slide. But I think I will try to keep it up to date now, and promote it more. Yes I am still battling Sarcoidosis. Things weren't too bad for awhile, and I couldn't really pinpoint anything in perticular that has happened, but I have gotten worse over time. I had to quit exercising. I couldn't even climb the stairs to the gym without dying. I have gained more weight, which really sucks. I am up to 242 lbs. I am awaiting a bladder suspension surgery. I see Dr. Asher (obgyn) on March 17 to set up the date. Can't wait for this one, after having a cough for over a month now, I sure go through the 'pads' on a regular basis, I am ready to wear 'pull-ups' lol. I am nervous about the anethestetic though, I had a real hard time starting to breath again after my last surgery. I was in the recovery room for quite some time. I have starting reading on a regular basis some good Sarc blogs. I really enjoy seeing how other people are living their lives dealing with Sarc. If I can figure it out, I will add their blogs to this one. My sister is living with us right now. She has been here since October. It has been so wonderful, she helps clean and cook all the time. It has really helped me out, since I have a hard time doing these normal things. I have to get the kids to help out more though and not rely on her to do things. They are well old enough to pick up after themselves. lol. Mike is at home at the moment. He had some bad luck with his last job....but I can't complain, I love having him home and spending lots of time with him. He is planning on going back to school in September. I am so proud of him for deciding to do this. Well, I am happy to be back blogging....forgot how fun it was. I will try very hard to continue to do this on a regular basis. Thanks for reading!

Lost in the World

2007-07-18T20:29:00.000-05:00

I just thought I better do an updated post, since I haven't been on here for a few weeks. I just haven't been feeling like my old self, and have been fighting the aches and pains and migraines that kept coming. I am starting to feel better and will hopefully be back to my normal self. Life is going good. The kids are enjoying the summer and Mike is working hard. We have been looking at houses to buy. Which is a very exciting time. There is one, that we really like. Who knows this may be the one. Still going to the gym. Haven't lost any weight in awhile, but I am maintaining, so that is good news. But I will keep at it, and hopefully the scales will start moving down again soon. With two new babies coming into the family I have been busy crocheting some blankets and booties. I will try to take a picture of them so that I can post how well I did. I guess I better get back at it. Till next time.

13 Things I Love About Facebook

2007-07-05T19:12:00.000-05:00

This weeks post is about the new craze happening online these days. "Facebook". I have been drawn in to the wide world of facebook. Mike has stood his ground, stating that he was not going to join. But the web has sucked him in, and he joined this week. So for this Thursday Thirteen, I decided to list my 13 favourite things about facebook.

a great way to connect to the web.
keeping in contact with friends and family.
world wide food fight. (the best)
displaying my ribbons (Sarcoidosis, Bi-polor, Same-sex marriages)
Showing my game colours for my hockey team (Montreal Canadiens)
allows others to see my mood.
sending 'pokes' to your friends
daily horoscopes right to your page
displaying pictures of your family for all to see
sending free gifts to your friends on the list
showing your causes you support (WWF, Sarcoidosis, Diabetes)
displaying my pictures of cats
and writing on other peoples walls

If you haven't had the pleasure of playing around with facebook, I suggest you try it out and have some fun.

Blank Mind

2007-06-29T04:43:00.001-05:00

Today is my Thursday Thirteen. Unfortunately, I have been abit under the weather (damn Sarcoidosis), my joints and muscles feel like a ton of bricks and ache to high heaven. Anyway, I am suppose to do my post for today. And I am completely blank as to what to write about. I could write about the fact that I have been up since 3:30am, wide awake, yet totally exhausted. Or write about the summer holidays starting, and how long it will be before my kids say "I'm bored". lol. Anyway, I am taking this week off. But I will try to have a great post for you next week.

Caitlin's Graduation

2007-06-26T14:04:00.000-05:00

Well last night was 'the night' for Caitlin. She graduated Grade 8. She will start high school in September now. I think she handled it pretty good. She is excited about going in September. Now me, I am somewhat sad. Another of my wonderful, beautiful girls is growing up right in front of my eyes. I can remember them so easily when they were still babies. Time flies by for sure. I am so proud of Caitlin. Her report card was awesome. Two "A's", and the rest were all "B's". She even received the French Award last night at the ceremony. She looked so elegant in her gown. All dressed up and looking beautiful. Now I know I am bias, but I do believe she was the prettiest one there. lol. But all the graduates were wearing their finest, and looking wonderful. There was a dinner before the ceremony. Which was delicious. Caitlin's Father and Grandfather joined us for dinner. And her Aunt Vicky and cousin Scott, plus her Papa and Grandma Mary came to see the ceremony. She was especially happy with her gifts. (which was mostly money). So now she can go shopping. One of her favourite past times. I am just so blessed with the children that I have. They are all intelligent, beautiful, and well mannered kids. So now with two in high school and only one left in public school, I have to make the best of everyday. Because before I know it, they will be out of the house, and I will be suffering from empty nest syndrome. Here are some pics of Caitlin and Chetasia and Matthew from last night. Enjoy!

Caitlin and her proud Dad

Chetasia

Matthew

All three of my kids

Gnostic Tenets of Novus Spiritus

2007-06-21T13:46:00.000-05:00

Today's topic is about Sylvia Browne's Gnostic Church. It is called the Society of Novus Spirtus. There are actually 21 tenets, describing the beliefs of Gnostic Christianity. I am going to pick my favourite 13 tenets for this post.

Tenet I: "The way of all peace is to scale the mountain of self. Loving others makes the climb down easier. We see all things darkly until love lights the lamp of our soul".The whole meaning of this first tenet points to climbing the mountain of your own ego, or the false self that can fool you and lure you into believing that your're more than you are. Climbing the mountain is difficult until you come to the understanding that you're a spiritual being who came here to experience for God and yourself. You'll float down the mountain and realize that loving others really does light the lamp of our soul.
Tenet VII: "Know that each life is a path winding toward perfection. It is the step after step that is hard, no the whole of the journey". Keep in mind that you've had many lives, and in each one you've learned a different facet of yourself. We can take detours, but we always live our charts and our destiny. We are what we are and what we're meant to be. We all end up taking the steps we must complete to finish our journey. It takes time, and it's quite a journey, but you're perfecting by the sheer fact that you come here to Earth in the first place.
Tenet VIII: "Be simple. Allow no man to judge you, not even yourself, for you cannot judge God." We are God, because we're the genetic part of God, made by God, and we carry that spark of the Divine within us. So we don't have the right to judge someone who doesn't measure up to what we think our standards are. Even our Lord said, "Judge not, lest ye be judged" and "You without sin cast the first stone."
Tenet XII: "The body is a living temple unto God, wherein we worship the spark of the Divine." Jesus, Buddha, Mohammed, and other religious leaders have all stated that the body is a temple. We believe that the body houses the soul, and what seems to be so temporary and fragile is probably one of the biggest miracles that God has created.
Tenet XIII: "God does not create the adversities in life. By your own choice they exist to aid in your perfection." We are homing our souls and learning to ascend to God with knowledge. Earth is the only 'hell' there is. There are millions of planets that are inhabited, but this is the only one that has evil and megativity in such abundance. Only the bravest of the brave incarnate here to face this planet's adversities. Earth is the toughest school in the universe, which is why so many of us come here. We wonder why, if God is all-loving, why is there suffering. When esus went to the garden of Gethsemane and asked God to remove the pain of the crucifixion that he knew was coming, God essentially told him, "No--you chose it to be this way in your contract, so you have to see it through. We pick a contract with God to learn and grow our soul to bring back information to God. We choose which negative aspects to have in our life.
Tenet XV: "God allows each person the opportunity for perfection, whether you need one life or a hundred lives to reach your level of perfection." Just as we choose different themes or lessons that we're going to learn, we also pick the number of lives (even the years, months, days, and hours) that we're going to exist on this planet in order to complete our mission or education. There is also the explanation for why some seem to be taken before what we feel is their time. Their charted time may be entirely different from our own. The Gnostics have always believed in reincarnation, but kept silent because they were afraid of being branded heretics.
Tenet XVI: "Devote your liefe, your soul, your very existance, to the service of God. For only there will you find meaning in life." In all the major religions, the basic themes of love, giving. and peace are pervasive. So if we go through life as the various messengers have told us to, then we've devoted our existance to the service of God.
Tenet XVIII: "Death is the act of returning Home; it should be done with grace and dignity. You may perserve that dignity by refusing prolonged use of artificial life-support systems. Let God's will be done." Medicine is marvelous, but sometimes we keep peoplk ealive when there's no life left. It is a loving wonderful thing to pass on, and go home to be with Jesus and God and all our family and friends that have gone on before us. Do not fear death for it is not the ending, but the beginning.
Tenet XIX: "We believe in a Mother God, Who is co-Creator with our all-loving Father God." The fact is, pure logic dictates that if there is a male principle, there has to be a female counterpart. Although the Christian movement has taken great pains to hide the truth for so many years, little bits and pieces are coming out these days, and the media is taking notice and picking up on the feminie principle.
Tenet XX: "We believe that our Lord was crucified, but did not die on the cross. Instead, he went on to live his life in France with his mother and Mary Magdalene, his wife." There are many facts to back up this truth. I can't put them all down here now, but will do a post strickly on this topic. And show path that Jesus took.
Tenet XXI: "We Gnostics kept the knowledge hidden that Christ's lineage exists even today, and the truth long buried is open to research." This is also another topic that could be written about extensively. I suggest reading Sylvia Browne's book "If You Could See What I See". It explains the truths much better than I can and the facts that go with it.
Tenet XVII: "War is profane; defense is compulsory." We Gnostics do not believe in war, for through the ages it hasn't accomplished much except death and destruction. We do believe that we must protect our lives and homes, but to have most of the world in turmoil is ridiculous.
Tenet VI: "In faith be like the wind chimes: Hold steady until faith, like the wind, moves you to joy." Faith to us Gnostics is synonymous with knowing, and truth, which is really important during a depressed or negative time in your life. If you hold on to your beliefs in a loving God, you'll find that your faith turns into an unshakable knowing.

I am sure some of these tenets have got you thinking, and questioning me. But these are my beliefs which I respect as well as respecting yours. I do recommend reading Sylvia Browne's work and you will see that we have an all-loving God that wants us to grow with love and knowledge.

Relay for Life

2007-06-16T14:24:00.000-05:00

What a wonderful, emotional, inspirational night. Relay for Life is a fundraising event for the Canadian Cancer Society, where groups of people raise money and spend the evening walking around a track. There was over 1300 people there. Over 100 just of survivors. There was food, music, and games all night. Our team alone raised over $1200. What a moment when all the luminaries are light in memory or in honour of those people that have been affected by cancer. Not a dry eye in the house. Just feeling the overwhelming love and support, you couldn't help but feel like anything was possible. I am not sure what the grand total raised was, but last year was over $100,000 and we have more teams this year. I think they said 119 teams or something like that. I can't wait till next year. Of course we weren't prepared for this year. Who knew that it got so cold out during the night, that you could see your own breath. Next time I am bringing a sleeping bad and toque. Unfortunately Mike had to work Saturday morning, so he could only stay until 11pm, but hopefully he will be out there walking the track all night with us next year.

The start of the Cancer Relay

The survivors lap

Team Name

Our Team

Memory luminary of Mike's Mom

Lighting the Candles

The lights are a glow

Our path of luminaries to walk by at night

Hope sign

The team is wearing down

4:00am, only 3 more hours to go

My blistered toe, man my feet hurt!

What an experience. Can't wait till next year!

13 Pet Peeves

2007-06-14T17:36:00.001-05:00

Today's subject for my Thursday Thirteen is all about my pet peeves. Everyone has them, and some may not bother others like they do certain people. That is what makes pet peeves fun.

People who don't put on the signal lights (oh this one is a big pet peeve)
People who don't say "thank you" after placing their order in the drive thru. (even worse are the ones that don't say it at all)
Litterbugs. (this has to be one of the worst, not only does it bother people, but it ruins the planet as well)
People who blow out their cig smoke as they are walking into a place, right into your face
People that ignore their crying, tantum throwing children in a store (does ignoring really make them stop, I don't think so, just makes them louder)
People who are cruel to animals (this is more than a pet peeve, it is an all out hatred)
Pestimistic people (don't they realize that depressing thought will only bring on depressing thoughts, not to mention they are very draining people)
Skinny people that can eat anything they want (this one is pretty self explanatory lol)
Getting woke up, only to have the kids ask "are you sleeping Mom" (it has taken some training, but I may have broke them from this habit)
People who use fowl language every other word they can (really is it necessary to swear like a sailor, very unattractive)
The dizziness feeling when you stand up to fast (we used to take stuff to get this feeling, now I just want it to stop)
Whispering (when I hear this, it just makes me more anxious, it is rude to whisper with people around)
People who don't appreciate all that they have (be thankful for food and water and room and board, or you could go live in Africa to really learn what you have)

Well here are the first 13 that came to my head. I am sure I could think up some more. But having too many pet peeves, it really a pet peeve.

A New Set of 10's

2007-06-13T13:28:00.000-05:00

I am doing really well with my weight loss. I have lost 2 more pounds this week. Putting me at 209 lbs now. Single digits. Only 10 lbs more and I will be under 200 lbs. That will be a great obstacle reached. And will only motivate me that much more to try hard and continue. I can't remember the last time I weighed under 200 lbs. I think atleast 3 or 4 years. So exciting. I am continuing to go to the gym. I really believe I am at that point where you want to go, and are sad when you miss it. I wondered when I would feel those feelings, so it is a surprise that I actually got there. I miss yoga. I keep forgetting to get the yoga cd from Kathie, to do it at home. But I miss the social aspect of going to yoga. I felt more a part of the world when I was out in a group setting. I do need to incorporate more activity into my days though to help the weight come off faster and easier. We try to go for a walk in the evening after the hubby comes home. This is easy to achieve in the nice warm summer days. It is beautiful and refreshing to walk down the main street in town, with all the trees full and lush and all the birds singing. You can't help but feel optomistic with a free mind. All this talk has me ready for a walk tonight. We have been doing 2 miles at a time. Maybe we are ready to up that. Of course our middle point is Timmies, so we reward ourselves with a coffee and a cookie for the walk back. Oh well, I can't wait till next week's weigh in.

My Busy Day

2007-06-08T20:13:00.000-05:00

As most of you know, I have a hard time with getting out of the house, out into the real world. And don't even mention having to drive the truck. That puts me into a panic in a flash. Well, none the less, my hubby has a new shift these days. He is working from 7:30am to 8pm everyday. So guess who is left to do the dirty work. A scared, anxious person that hates the public. So today is payday. There are about 6 places that I have to go to today. And in Chatham (fairly big city) for goodness sakes. So I am up with the kids before school, and the whole thought of having to go to town sickens me. So what do I do. I go back to bed and stay there until 11am. Hoping that when I walk out of my bedroom, the plans have changed. But to no avail, I still have all the running around ahead of me. So I bravely get into the truck (which most of you know is a monster big truck) and do my stops here in Ridgetown. There is going to the doctor's office for a script, then to the bank, post office, and Mac's Milk for lottery. Then I realize that I forgot an important piece of paper at home that I need, so I drive back home. Then I go to Timmie's for a much needed coffee. By this time I am already stressed out and I haven't even left town yet. So I drive to Chatham, and try to map out which way I have to go through the town. First stop is the Car Dealership for a part. So all is going pretty good. I get in and out of there with no problem. Next stop is Bank of Montreal. So since I am still on Richmond Dr. There is a bank just up from the car dealership. So I have to wait and turn cross 4 lanes of traffic, and go and park at the bank. I sit in the truck for a few minutes trying to cheer myself on. "You are doing a great job, everything is going well" Now I go into the bank, and if is closed. I am in disbelief. But they closed this branch because I new branch opened in a different place. So out of the bank I go, back on to the busy street, and make my way to where the new branch is. I get to the bank and I am in and out fairly quick. So I am fairly pretty proud of myself by this time. I carry on my way now to Canadian Tire. Well this place always wigs me out for some reason. But I have to pick up something and the sale ends today, so I have no choice. Well of course they don't have what I am there for, so I get a rain check. Yay, I get to come back. I live Canadian Tire and get in the truck to cross the parking lot (where there are alot of people that don't know what they are doing) and go to Zellers. (another place that wigs me out) I glance at all the nice clothes that I want to buy but can't cause I only have money for what I am there for. Underwear, for everyone it seems. So I pick up 3 different packages of underwear and go to the till. And that total nearly floors me. $48, for 3 packages of underwear. I can't believe it, but it is true. So I pay for them, as I see my bank account getting smaller. I then have to cross town and go to a health food store. It is at this time that I realize I don't have my sun glasses. I look all over, and have to come to the sad realization that I have lost my clip on sun glasses. I droop my head in shame at my foolishness. I will have to deal with that another day. So I have to menover(sp?) this big truck into a small nearly full parking lot. I am not so good at parking.....I know you may have thought different but it is true. I can't back up to save my life. Some how I get into a spot and get in and out of the store. I am drained and sweaty and my hands are shaking, and I need to go home. So I drive myself to the Timmie's for another coffee to keep me alert, and I drive up over the curb, monster trucking, which startles me. I am now finished with my work in Chatham. I get to drive home now. But once I get to Ridgetown I have one more stop left at our mechanics. I go in and get our transmission oil and go to pay with debit and guess what. For some reason the machine is not working right now. Weird, it was working a few minutes ago. So I hop back in the truck and drive up town to the bank again, and get some money. Come back to the mechanics and pay my bill. I am now free to go home. I get into our drive way, and stay there for 5 minutes, destressing myself. My busy day is over. And I made it through. But I am not looking forward to the next time, but maybe I will be a little more at ease.

The Month of June

2007-06-07T11:45:00.000-05:00

THURSDAY THIRTEEN

Since my birthday is in the month of June, and it is a great month. I decided to list 13 bits of information about June. Enjoy

1. Pearl is one of the Modern June birthstone. 2. The Gemstone Alexandrite is the color changing variety of the mineral Chrysoberyl. The June Birthstone, its color varies from red to green depending upon the light source.

3. Moonstone is one of the modern June birthstones and an accepted gem for the 13th wedding anniversary. 4. June's flower is the rose or honeysuckle.(the rose being my favourite flower)

5. According to the Celtic calendar this is the second month of 'Beltaine', (also Beltane) a time associated with healing, within nature, of the body and of the spirit.

6. June is the sixth month of the year in the Gregorian calendar, with a length of 30 days.

7. The month is named after the Roman goddess Juno, wife of Jupiter and equivalent to the Greek goddess Hera.

8. The first Monday in June is one of the public holidays in the Republic of Ireland; in the Irish Calendar the month is called Meitheamh and is the middle month of the summer season.

9. The solstice called the summer solstice in the northern hemisphere and the winter solstice in the southern hemisphere occurs on dates varying from 20 June to 22 June (in UTC). In the pagan wheel of the year the summer solstice is the time of Litha and the winter solstice is that of Yule.

10. June 19th is the birthday of Garfield, a comic strip created by Jim Davis.

11. Mellissa was born on June 5th, this year she celebrated her 37th birthday.

12. Father's Day is celebrated in Belgium on the second Sunday in June. In the United States, the United Kingdom, Mexico, the Netherlands, Ireland and Canada it is celebrated on the third Sunday in June.

13. O my Luve's like a red, red rose. That's newly sprung in June.- Robert Burns

Happy Birthday to Me

2007-06-05T09:13:00.000-05:00

Well today is my birthday. I am 37 years old. I know to most people that doesn't sound too old, but to me it does. When I was younger and would think about people being in their late 30's, I thought they were ancient. Of course my sister will turn 40 this year so I will always be younger than her. But at 37, there is only 3 years left till 40. Am I where I want to be at this point in my life. I think I am. Of course it is changed up a bit. I don't have that great successful career that I thought I would. But I do have a wonderful husband and great kids. So that makes it all worth while. The best part about my birthday is being a Gemini. We are a special breed all to ourselves. But that is what makes us a lively, flighty all over kind of person. So what should be my gift to myself. I am very actively thinking of a new tattoo. Plus I would love to get over to the slots and play for awhile. I also want to have a chemical peel and microdermabrasion down on my face. I am hoping I can get all three things. But they may have to be spaced out. We are having a family day on Sunday to celebrate my birthday, and then dinner out. I can't wait. Well I guess I should go carry on with my day, and wait and see if I feel any different, or just another year older.

Weight Loss Again

2007-06-02T16:19:00.001-05:00

Well after more than a month of no activity on the weight journey. I have now had a really good week. I have lost 4 lbs this week. This is wonderful. Only 12 lbs more and I will be under 200 lbs. I can't wait to start seeing more and more change. I have been trying something different this week. I won't say what it is as of yet, but if I continue to see such great results, I may pass on my secret. Lets just keep hoping for more weight to come off. I am excited for next week to come.

Favourite Foods

2007-05-31T10:12:00.000-05:00

This week's post is about yummy, wonderful food. These are 13 of my favourite foods. They are in no particular order, just what came to my mind first.

Spaghetti
Chocolate covered strawberries
Fetticinni Alfredo
Roast Beef (the whole works with gravy and potatoes and Yorkshire Pudding mmmmm)
Yogurt (especially frozen)
Steak (medium rare of course)
Chilli (not too spicy)
Pancakes (with fruit or syrup or even just butter, love them)
Oatmeal (will never get sick of oatmeal, is my breakfast everyday)
Green Beans (I remember picking them with Grandma, and eating them fresh out of the garden)
Cakes (this pretty much includes all kinds of cakes, I am a sucker for them)
Pineapple (fresh, cut, and cored is almost to die for)
Carrots (especially fresh, crisp baby carrots)

Well now that I have made myself hungry again, I will have to go search through the cupboards to see what I can find. I am not too picky and enjoy pretty much all foods, but these 13 make the top of the list.

Yoga on Hold

2007-05-30T12:09:00.001-05:00

Well last night I realized that right now Yoga may not be for me. I really enjoy doing it, and hope to continue to try at home,(where no one can see me lol). I think the biggest problem is I haven't lost enough weight yet. I just can't stretch as far as the other girls. Plus I want to get more into the meditation and breathing aspects of yoga, than mastering the actually positions. I am not saying that I have given up totally on the idea, but until I can conquer my weight issue I think this is the best choice. Kathie is going to continue to practice yoga, and she is doing wonderful. This is really her thing. Unlike Tai Chi, which I loved. Maybe that is my calling. But I will be fit and able to do those stretches and positions, and actually look like I care what my body looks like. To the next challenge, HI HO Silver Away!!!

Mellissa Need's According to Google

2007-05-24T22:39:00.000-05:00

Today I decided I needed a little help writing my to do list so I went to Google and it kindly helped me out. I simply typed in “Mellissa needs” and voila!

Mellissa needs someone from near there who will work with her today to get a van.(I must be getting tired of the truck)
Mellissa Needs at least 10 hours of sleep a day.(oh isin't this the truth)
Mellissa needs a break.(Google sure knows me)
Mellissa needs a cigarette every morning when she gets up in order to get herself going. (yuck! that was back in the day, not now)
Mellissa needs to get on board with her new body.(this one is so true, I need to love me)
Mellissa needs to get over it.(not sure what to get over, but I do tend to stay on things to long)
Mellissa needs to find a new agent.(yes one that will find me what I want in life)
Mellissa needs to go to school, and she needs her coffee to do so.(I love school and would go back in a minute, and everyone knows you need a Timmy's to start the day)
Mellissa needs hydration after the walk.(if anyone knows me, they know I love my water)
Mellissa needs to comb her hair and work on bowel problems.(well my hair usually is messy, but as for the bowel problems, I am pretty good in that department right now)
Mellissa needs to do a better job of connecting with the audience.(yes I am shy and seem to lose my courage with a crowd)
Mellissa needs to follow the order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness.(I wonder what order I need to follow, cause I would love to develop these things)
Mellissa needs to be locked up in jail.(well this may be alittle to harsh lol)

Isin't it funny how we can take other situations and put them to ourselves and they still work. This was a fun activity. You should do the same and see what you need, according to Google.

May 24

2007-05-20T21:14:00.000-05:00

Well it is Sunday night of the first long weekend of the summer season. I should outside sitting by a fire pit enjoying a fancy alcoholic beverage. But that is what I would be doing 15 years ago. Now I am enjoying the warmth of the house, the hot coffee, and cuddle time on the couch. My kids are enjoying a weekend with both Mom and Dad around, even though they have no idea who Queen Victoria was. I was brought back to my memories last night though. As I enjoyed that fire pit. But not with a drink in my hand, but with a marshmellow browning waiting for the eager kid to take it off the wire. You could hear squeals of joy and see children running around enjoying the fresh air. This is what my long weekends look like now. Filled with young ones making the most of the spring weather. I am thankful that my Sarcoidosis has taken a back seat and allowed me to sit out in the night air enjoying adult conversations. Though I was some what stiff this morning, it was all worth it. Gone are the days of fuzzy heads and hungover mornings. Now is the time for family life and adulthood. Do I miss those days of younger. Not for a minute. Who needs to wake up with a headache and not remember the night before, only to do it again the next night to make the most out of the long weekend. Not me.....I will go to sleep tonight warm snuggled in my bed, thinking of all the kids wet and cold in their tents. One day soon that will be my children, and they will make many memories for themselves.

Favourite Movies

2007-05-17T13:00:00.000-05:00

Today's installment of Thursday Thirteen is my favourite movies. These are in no real order and I am sure I have forgotten ones that I just love. But these are the ones that come to my mind first.

The Day After Tomorrow
Titanic
Pride and Prejudice
Mary Poppins
Steel Magnolias
Terms of Endearment
Brokeback Mountain
Sense and Sensibility
Sound of Music
Beaches
Passion of the Christ

12. Charlotte's Web (the 1973 film, haven't seen the new one yet)

Pretty Woman

As you can tell from this selection, "Drama" is my favourite genre. I think I need to get some comedy in my life. But I do love a happy ending. I hope that you all have seen these great movies.

Grad Dress Shopping

2007-05-14T11:08:00.000-05:00

Saturday was the day. We "finally" (as Caitlin says) went to buy her a dress. It started out a great day. Matthew didn't want to come do girly stuff, so he stayed home with a friend. So it was just the four of us. It is not very often that we are out with just the girls, so that was a nice treat. We started off in Chatham. First store was a 'formal gown' store. There wasn't very much in Caitlin's size, and what there was came with a big price tag. Around $400 per dress. So we ventured on. The next place we went was Le Chateau. They didn't have very much choices there as well. A couple cute black dresses, but that was it. So we went to another store on King St. Caitlin walked in, looked around, and walked out again, all within 5 minutes. So we then go to a bridal shop on King St. The owner was a weird guy who was giving us all the jeebies, so we left there. We then decided to go for lunch and think up a new plan. We decided to go on to Windsor to the Devonshire Mall. This was the best part of the day. We found a parking spot right in front of a Sears door. We walk in, and directly infront of us was a sign "All Formal Wear 35% Off". We couldn't believe it. So we are looking through the dresses and Caitlin's first pick, she thinks is the one. But we choose another 4 dresses for her to try on. But it turns out, that yes her first pick was the dress. So since the dress was such a good price....$59.00 (I know, can you believe it), we decided to get the rest of her accessories. We walk down the aisle and there is a sign..."All Jewerly 30% Off", we couldn't believe it, so we got her necklace and earrings. Then we decided we might as well find her shoes, since we had the dress with us to match up. So we walk down the aisle again, and low and behold, "Shoes 25-35% Off". So she found her perfect shoes. All of this shopping took less than one hour. We go up to the cashier and the grand total for everything was $119.00. The day was ment to be, everything just fell into place. And she will look beautiful and all grown up the day of her graduation. I am including some pics we took of her trying on dresses. She had a wonderful day because it was her day, all about her.

And this is the"ONE"

Mood Swings

2007-05-11T12:35:00.000-05:00

Todays 13 things are about my moods. This week has been like a ship bouncing up and down on the ocean waves. Half the time I don't know why I feel these emotions, they just come. Must be the bi-polar. Fun stuff that it is. These feelings are in no order, just the way I remember them.

regretful
miserable
exasperated
apologetic
anxious
meditative
lonely
sympathetic
thoughtful
undecided
blissful
happy
frightened

I could go into detail about the situations where I felt these things. But you would probably think me crazy, cause most of them don't make sense. I am happy to say that today I am feeling 'normal' This is always a good thing.

Yoga Positions

2007-05-03T09:43:00.000-05:00

Todays post is 13 different Yoga poses. I have been studying yoga for 3 weeks now. I truly enjoy it, especially the relaxation part at the end. What a way to clear your mind and soul and become one with your higher power. There is a word in most of the position names, "asana". Which is Sanskrit for 'seat' or 'sitting meditation'. It refers not only to the physical position of the body, but to the position of the spirit in relation to divinity. Modern usage of the word "asana" in reference to the practice of yoga generally refers to a physical posture or pose. I have included a picture of each pose. The first name in the column is the actual Sanskrit name, and the second column is the English translation.

Bala-asana......Child posture
Dhanur-asana.....Bow posture
Shava-asana........Corpse posture
Padma-asana.......Lotus posture
Chakra-asana.......Wheel posture
Vriksha-asana......Tree pose
Tada-asana.......Mountain pose
Surya-namaskar......Sun Salutation (is a sequence of poses so no pic sorry)
Akarna dhanur-asana......Shooting Bow posture
Naga-asana.....Cobra posture
Nutaraja-asana......King of the Dance posture
Matsya-asana.......Fish posture
Ushtra-asana.......Camel posture

My Favourite TV Shows--Past and Present

2007-04-27T11:51:00.000-05:00

Thursday Thirteen

This weeks post is about my favourite tv shows. Both past and present. Since there are always those shows that just stick with you. The list is in no set order, just which shows came to my mind first.

ER
CSI Miami (I do like this one best out of all the CSI's)
CSI
House
Holmes on Holmes
Miami Ink
The Cosby Show
The Hardy Boys (I had such a crush on Shawn Cassidy)
Extreme Home Makeover
The Muppet Show
10 Years Younger
A Baby Story
The Medium

Weigh Day today

2007-04-23T12:18:00.000-05:00

Well today is Monday. Fun stuff. lol. I weighed this morning and I have lost 1lb. So I am happy. Hope this means I am out of my rut and will start losing weight again. Mike weighed yesterday before he went up to Alliston, and he has lost 4lbs. He is amazing, only 8lbs to go for his target weight. I think he is sexy enough now, and doesn't need to lose those last 8lbs.
Today started out interesting. I had an appointment in Chatham to have a heart monitor wired on. I have to wear it for the next 48 hours. I am hoping this it will show something for the doctors to read, so they don't think I am crazy. I have my appointment with Dr.Tran on April 30th, so we will see where we go from there.
So as I said, Mike is up in Alliston for training for his new job. Very exciting for him, hanging out in a hotel for 4 days. It is very quiet here without him, and I miss him lots. I just hope that he is enjoying himself. He is there with his brother also, so I am sure they are having an interesting time, since when the two of them are together they are very funny people.
Well, I guess that is all the news I have for today. I will carry on my day, trying not to rip out any wires along the way. lol

Cats that I have owned

2007-04-19T12:42:00.000-05:00

Thursday Thirteen

This week's entry is my cats. I could almost post a picture of each one of my cats, but I will keep it down to my two cats that I have now. Here are 13 cats that I have owned.

Tiffy
Taffy
Packerman
Storm
Casey
Finnigan
Henry
Franklin
Abby
PJ
Bidwell
Oscar
Jackson

I have had many more cats that I can't think of their names, at one time I think there was about 20 of them out at the farm growing up. All of them have a place in my heart.

This one is Oscar (2 years old)

This one is Jackson (6 years old)

Where I have lived

2007-04-13T05:58:00.000-05:00

Thursday Thirteen Every Thursday, I will post a list of 13 things that are related to me. This is a way for everyone to get to know me better. This weeks list is going to be the places where I have lived. All of them have been in Ontario, so no really big adventures. 1. Little house on the farm in Croton. From June 1970 till 1973 2. Big brick house on the farm in Croton. From 1973 till December 1985 3. Ann St in Thamesville. From December 1985 till August 1988 4. Hamilton. From September 1988 till December 1989 (not counting but moved back home with Mom on Ann St for 6 months) 5. Base Line (RR 5) Thamesville. From July 1990 till August 1992 6. Lindsay. From September 1992 till April 1993 7. Townhouse in Thamesville. From May 1993 till April 1994 8. Bothwell. From May 1994 till September 1994 9. near Moraviantown. From September 1994 till November 1994 (not counting, but lived with some friends for the month of December 1994) 10. Highgate. From January 1995 till December 1995 11. Selton Line Thamesville. From January 1996 till March 1997 12. Main St. Ridgetown. From April 1997 till December 1997 13. Green Line Ridgetown. From January 1998 till March 2005 (I actually have 15 places so I will put in the last two) 14. 7 James St. Ridgetown. From April 2005 till April 2006 15. 1 James St. Ridgetown. From May 2006 till present No wonder I am so good at packing, I seem to have lots of practice.

Weigh Day

2007-04-09T21:01:00.000-05:00

Well it has been another week on the diet front. I have lost 1lb and Mike has lost 2lbs. Slowly but surely, I am getting closer to my goal weight. But at this rate, it will be next year. lol. I am still feeling crappy this week. I have a day where I am not so bad, and then two days in a row, where I can barely get out of bed, and spend most the day hugging a toliet. Gravol is my new best friend. I have a doctors appointment on Friday, so amongst my other ailments that I have to discuss with him, I will mention this nausia problem. I think it may be my ulcer acting up again, but I don't want to have to go through another gastric scope. It looks like I may have to increase my Pariet that I take now. Well the long weekend is finished, and it is back to normal tomorrow morning. Lets hope I feel well enough to get the kids ready for school.

Late Weigh Day

2007-04-04T11:46:00.000-05:00

Sorry I haven't been around this week. Been under the weather lately. Am feeling alittle better now. But by being sick, I was able to lose some weight. So here are the statistics for the week. I lost 2 lbs, and Mike lost 6lbs.(but Mike was sick too) It seems even though we both received our flu shot in the fall, we were able to be taken over by the virus this week. Mike is really close to where he wants to stay. If you look at our weight tickers, Mike says he has lost 67 lbs, and mine says I have 67 lbs to lose. So there is proof it can be done. Since Mike's work schedule has been changing this week, he has been home in the evenings. So we have been going for walks every night. It has been great. I will have to drag Chetasia out with me, when Mike goes back to his normal shift again. Well my 'baby girl' turns 16 years old on Friday. I can't believe where the time has gone. Well heres till my next post. Which I will try hard to make more regular.

Why Do I Sabotage Myself?

2007-03-26T22:17:00.000-05:00

Well Mike had a terrific week once again. He lost 4 more pounds. He is only 20lbs away from his goal weight. I am so proud of him. He is working out great at the gym as well. Now me on the other hand. I am not doing so great. I gained 1lb this week. But I can't blame anyone but myself. I start out so dedicated and I work out strong at the gym, but then I come home and am overwhelmed with a sugar craving beyond all sugar cravings. And there goes my willpower right out the window. But I feel the world is out to get me to.lol This week the kids brought home a box of chocolate bars to sell for their school. Just what I need. Chocolate staring at me every hour of everyday. I think I can honestly hear them talking to me. "we are so good, come eat us, you love the taste of chocolate" lol. Well once again this Monday, I vowed to be strong and stick to my healthy eating. I had a little slip already and I felt so guilty. So I decided to burn off some extra calories. And ran in place for almost 20 minutes. I was so proud that I could do that. Especially with the way my ankles have been bothering me. So I hope I burnt enough calories to take care of my 'opps' and start my week fresh. I am going to try and run for 20 minutes every night this week and see how that helps with me weight loss. So wish me luck, send all your willpower to me cause I could use it. And we will see what next Monday says.

No weight change this week.

2007-03-19T22:40:00.000-05:00

Well it seems that March Break had more of an effect on us than we thought. lol My eating habits were messed up all last week. Plus not to mention a 'pizza' night, and cake and ice cream for Matthew's birthday. Oh ya and Mike took us out to dinner to a buffet for Matthew's birthday dinner. So alas, I did not stick to my diet at all. So in all honesty, I am very happy that there was no weight change. I thought for sure that I would have gained a pound or two. Now that everyone is back to the normal routine, I am hoping to do really well next week on weight in to make up for this week's poor outcome. And as I mentioned everyone back to normal, after a busy day at school, I had three very tired, grouchy kids come home. Chetasia fell asleep on her bed around 4:30, and I had to wake her up at 7pm so she would sleep tonight. It is amazing what a week off does to everyone. lol But they really don't have too long before another 4-day weekend. Easter is almost here. Chetasia is excited because her birthday is on Good Friday this year, so she gets it off school. Now that March Break is done, it will be school summer holidays before we know it. Of course, I am ready for the warm sun to come out and make everything green again. But even though it is Spring in two days, I still got excited when it was snowing this morning. But don't tell anyone that, I would probably get shot. lol

Is there such a thing as too many kids?

2007-03-16T22:33:00.000-05:00

Well today was the last official day of March Break. The kids are back in school on Monday. Which will probably start with many moans and groans. But I will be happy. This has been a busy week at the house. We never went anywhere special or did anything cool, but the kids all enjoyed their break. Probably because my house has been constantly filled with kids. First Caitlin had her best friend over night Tuesday. While Chetasia had three friends over to visit. Then Caitlin had 4 friends overnight on Wednesday. Matthew then had a friend spend the night Thursday night. Now on Friday Chetasia has 3 friends spending the night. And all the while kids have been in and out of our door so much I think the hinges will fall off. Since Mike had to work all of March Break like normal, I was left to fend for myself amongst the endless trail of pre-teens and teenages. You can only imagine what a kitchen can look like after four 13 year olds decide to make pancakes at 9 o'clock at night. I look forward to Sunday night, sitting relaxing on the couch just waiting for Monday morning at 8:30am when the children are gone to school, the house is quiet, and I can go back to bed and gather up on the sleep that I lost this week. Cause if you don't know.....when kids spend the night, they never go to bed when they are supposed to. You are still yelling at them to be quiet and go to sleep at 2 and 3 in the morning. How many weeks till summer break? I may need a padded room by then.

It's been another banner week

2007-03-13T23:51:00.000-05:00

It seems losing 5lbs a week is our thing. This week I lost 1lb and Mike lost 4lbs. He is just amazing, plus he burns alot of calories at the gym. He is almost to his goal. And his body is toning up real sexy like. lol. I am happy with my 1lb loss. I had a couple weak moments last week. And I had Kentucky Fried Chicken for supper one night. And I know all that grease and fat was not good for me, but man was it good. I wish I could loss the calories like Mike. I tried running today on the treadmill, and within 1 minute my heart rate jumped to 156 bpm, and I was short of breath. Then I was only able to walk for 10 minutes today because my ankles were hurting so bad. So I went to the bicycle, to atleast continue some type of exercise. I am trying but am only burning around 100 calories compared to Mike's 400 calories. If only my body would jump on board with the new routine, I would be laughing. lol On another happy note though, today was beautiful out. A perfect spring day. I think it was around 17 C and sunny. The kids loved it. I saw Matthew first thing in the morning, and then not again till 5 oclock. Ravishing of course, but he smelled so good, like fresh air, and he had no problem going to sleep tonight. With a day like this it is hard to believe that we are suppose to get snow again on Friday. Well it is the 2nd day of March break, and I have heard "I'm bored" about 6 times already. I think they are going for a record this week. But now when I hear "I'm bored", I put them to work, so I am hoping that will curb those 2 words. Well it is 1am so I better go to bed. And dream about playing outside in the sun. Oh yeah one last thing. I had a wonderful surprise today. Rachel brought me over a dozen long stem red roses. They are so beautiful and smell so good. I really didn't deserve them for anything, but I am grateful for them just the same. Thank you very much Rachel. You made my day.

Hump Day

2007-03-07T22:53:00.000-05:00

Nothing much new going on. I am feeling a bit better. Been really watching when and what I eat. Still waiting for my 'heart' doctor to call back with an appointment. Guess things aren't as important as I had thought. (which is a great thing !!).

So my new thing (you know me, always have to try something or other) is motorcycling. Mike has been 'buggin' me about getting my bike licence. He is dying to have someone to ride with. lol. So I have decided to go take my written, which is good for 3 months and see what I think of motorcycles. On Sunday, March 25 at Duke's Harley Davidson, they are having what they call a Women's Garage Party. They have interactive spaces set up to help women that have never dealt with motorcycles to learn more about them. Like where the brake and gas is. (something very important to learn)lol. It looks really interesting though, and I should learn lots. If I decide that I like it all, and would like to ride more often. I will then take a course to help me learn and then get my M2 licence. Mike is already talking about buying two bikes for us. Keeps saying how "hot" girls are on motorcycles. So I definitely want him looking my way. I will keep you all posted on the new bike news, and pray that I don't fall over my first time getting on.

We lost 5lbs again this week.

2007-03-05T23:03:00.000-05:00

But this week is even better than last, because I lost 3 of those pounds. I was so excited. It definitely helps to motivate me even more, seeing the pounds go. I still have a long way to go, but if I can steadily lose my average of 2lbs a week. I will be at my goal by my anniversary on November 21st. I do believe it was the Metformin that I now take that helped with the weight loss, but who cares, as long as it keeps going down, I will take it. We have been going to the gym 6 weeks now. And we have gone 3 times a week, for all 6 weeks. You should see the muscles in my arms......I am trying to pass Victoria with her big working arms. lol Now the journey continues. The best and safest thing is to keep a balance in your life, acknowledge the great powers around us and in us. If you can do that, and live that way, you are really a wise man. Euripides (484 BC - 406 BC)

Sorry I have been away

2007-03-04T23:22:00.000-05:00

I just haven't been feeling like myself this last week. Nothing I could put my finger on. I am now taking medication for my diabetes, and then at my doctors appointment on Friday, I now have to take cholesteral medication. And my liver enzymes were elevated, which I knew, and told Dr. Prins. So we are just keeping an eye on it for now. But even though my Sarcoidosis was trying to bring me down. I made it to the gym my three times this last week. Today I had a bit of a scare. I went into a hypoglycemic (sp?) spell. Was terrible. Couldn't stop shaking, dizzy, head spinning. It lasted for about 20 minutes. All the while I was trying to eat something. Then I went and laid down to calm myself. So my lesson for today is to make sure that I eat regularly, and snack in between my meals. Well tomorrow is weigh day again. I will pray to the 'fat' gods. (just kidding Dad lol) Here's waiting for tomorrow.

Together We Lost 5lbs

2007-02-27T17:15:00.000-05:00

Yes it is true.......together we lost 5lbs. I can only account for one of those pounds. lol. But that was a much better outcome than I was expecting after my bad week. So yahoo, one pound closer to my goal. Also, I am so proud of Mike. He is doing terrific. And he is looking quite handsome these days, I must say. In my opinion he shouldn't lose any more weight. lol. But I know he is not totally happy were he is at yet. He said maybe once he got into the 240's he would consider slowing things down. Hopefully next week's weigh in will be just as exciting as this week. Wish us luck. And on another note. I just e-filed Mike's income tax return to the government. I am so proud of myself for being able to do his return. It saves us atleast $50. We will count how many days it takes to get processed. We are at the beginning of the busy time, so they may surprise us. lol

Weigh Day Tomorrow!

2007-02-25T23:06:00.000-05:00

So yes tomorrow is weigh day. I used to be excited about Mondays, but I am a bit timid right now. Yes, I have been going to the gym still, very regular and dedicated. But I did happen to eat more than I should of this last week. Mike tries to comfort my worries by reminding me that getting muscle weighs more than fat. So that if I did happen to gain any weight, just means I now have more muscle. So this sounds like a pretty good reason to me, so I am going with it. I still must thank Mike for being the most dedicated person there is for going to the gym. It is because of him that I make it 3 times a week. But if it is a kick in the butt that gets me there, then that is fine with me. We are going to try and go for a swim soon as well, and take the whole family to the pool. Especially since our gym is right above the pool, we see it every day, and I long to just go jump in. But right now I can't fit into my bathing suit..lol. So I will try to lose a little more before making an appearance. I had fasting blood work done on Friday, with my return appointment on this Wednesday. So it will be good to see where my blood sugar level is at. Hopefully right in the middle of normal. And that my cholesteral is normal as well. My heart rate seems to be more towards the 110 bpm then the 120 bpm that it has hovered around for the last year. So I do believe that the exercise and slight weight loss so far, has had a good effect on my heart. By the time I get closer to my goal weight, my heart should be beating healthy like a childs. lol Well here is hoping anyway. But speaking of my heart, I have my referral to the heart doctor to run more tests, to see exactly what the Sarcoidosis is doing to my heart. I will keep you all posted on any interesting news, good or bad. Well wish me luck at weigh in time. Hopefully I will be changing my weight loss ticker tomorrow. And going down, not up. lol

A New Tattoo

2007-02-20T23:15:00.000-05:00

Well it has been awhile since my last tattoo. I can't exactly remember how long, but I think close to one year. But that is my birthday present this year from Mike. Unfortunately I have to wait till June for my birthday. lol. I don't know what it is about tattoos, or why they hold such a fascination to me. I use them as a healing process. With every painful ink spot, I am able to release negative energy, and unwanted issues. I am able to go into a meditation of sorts and calm my spirit, and leave a very relaxed and at ease person. I have 5 tattoos so far, and they all mean something special to me. It is still funny to see how people look at me and how they try to figure me out. I guess this is my way to wear my emotions on my sleave. lol. Way out in plain sight. I have so many ideas running through my head. So many pictures just waiting to seep out and onto my skin. People ask me what I think about being old and having the tattoos. My answer is always the same. I will love them just as much then as I do now. And all I will have to do, is stretch my skin out and freak my grandchildren out. lol.

Here is a picture of one of my tattoo ideas. This may be the winning choice for this birthday present.

What shows more love then Jesus comforting a baby!!

Sylvia Browne

2007-02-17T20:05:00.000-05:00

I am reading one of Sylvia Browne's new books....."The Mysterious Life of Jesus". I am half way through it so far, and am very intrigued. It brings light to many things that I believe in, which others ignore. I am planning on passing the book over to my Dad. I really think he will find it controversal and entertaining. Then I can find out what his view point is. Sylvia also has two new books called...."Father God", and "Mother God". Can't wait to start those. I love reading her books. I feel like I know her personally. She makes sense of different topics, shows proof to many things that I believe in. I would love to have a reading done by her. I think (and hope) to go see her in conference when she comes to Detroit or Toronto next time. For anyone looking for more, seeking the truth about life, Angels, Heaven, God. She has a direct link to the "Other Side", and brings things into perspective. I would like to thank those who have left a comment on my blog. What a great feeling knowing that someone has read what you have wrote and they are interested in it. Also thank you to my wonderful husband who left a comment under the "under the weather" blog. You should check it out to see what a loving partner that I have. I thank everyone for bringing me to him.

2007-02-14T12:34:00.000-05:00

Even though I am in remission with my lungs, my Sarcoidosis still reminds me that it is around and live and kicking. I am trying to become healthy again. Lose the weight that I have gained from all my medication. Stop the Diabetes dead in its track. But every day I am also having to fight the affects of this disease. We have been working out at the gym now going on 4weeks. It is great. But over the last week, my body has been telling me that it is not wanting to go. Walking on the treadmill, which I really enjoy, now is causing great pain in my ankles and up my legs. To the point of tears when I push myself. The weight training, which is starting to produce some nice muscles, is becoming harder and harder. But I thank Mike for motivating me to continue to go. I get frustrated watching him working out so well, burning loads of calories each time, and here I am feeling like I am stumbling my way at a back of a race. I am not giving up though, I still have a fair bit of weight to lose. But it does get depressing when I have to push myself harder each day I go. Wish me luck...... I frequently visit another blog, by a woman who is a mother and has Sarcoidosis. She is a writer, and seems to put down in words what I am always thinking or feeling. Her last blog topic was about being afraid. Afraid of all the aspects of the disease. For any of you who may be interested in ready this blog, the address is http://www.rs.4030.com The blog is called 'Chronic Town'. So if you are interested in how I am doing emotionally, this is a good read. It is like she is in my head sometimes, but just writes it down better than I could. Well tomorrow is another day at the gym, and I am going to make it a good one......!

Finding My Religion

2007-02-11T22:10:00.000-05:00

What is my religion? Most people would have a quick, distinct answer. But I am having a hard time stating just one belief. I still consider myself Christian, and believe that Jesus will be there welcoming me in heaven. But I am having problems with some of the bible beliefs, and all the hidden information and outlook on women. Things that were changed by priests, not by God. I can see why people start studying Buddhism. It is a very simplistic religion based on being a good person and doing good things and helping people out. I also believe in some of the Wiccan beliefs, such as their connection with nature, and natural healing. I believe in Chi, Chakras, and meditation. I believe in reincarnation. If I could only find a religion that could combine all of these beliefs, I would be ecstatic. But for now I have to take time to look over each one, and take out of them what I want. So today I am learning more on Buddhism and have included the beliefs and meanings for all to enjoy. Core beliefs of Buddhism: The Three Trainings or Practices: These three consist of: Sila: Virtue, good conduct, morality. This is based on two fundamental principles: The principle of equality: that all living entities are equal. The principle of reciprocity: This is the "Golden Rule" inChristianity -- to do onto others as you would wish them do onto you. It is found in all major religions. Samadhi: Concentration, meditation, mental development. Developing one's mind is the path to wisdom which in turn leads to personal freedom. Mental development also strengthens and controls our mind; this helps us maintain good conduct. Prajna: Discernment, insight, wisdom, enlightenment. This is the real heart of Buddhism. Wisdom will emerge if your mind is pure and calm. The Four Noble Truths: The Buddha's Four Noble Truths explore human suffering. They may be described (somewhat simplistically) as: Dukkha: Suffering exists: (Suffering is real and and almost universal. Suffering has many causes: loss, sickness, pain, failure, the impermanence of pleasure.) Samudaya: There is a cause for suffering. (It is the desire to have and control things. It can take many forms: craving of sensual pleasures; the desire for fame; the desire to avoid unpleasant sensations, like fear, anger or jealousy.) Nirodha: There is an end to suffering. (Suffering ceases with the final liberation of Nirvana (a.k.a. Heaven). The mind experiences complete freedom, liberation and non-attachment. It lets go of any desire or craving.) Magga: In order to end suffering, you must follow the Eightfold Path. The Five Precepts: Do not kill. This is sometimes translated as "not harming" or an absence of violence. Do not steal. This is generally interpreted as including the avoidance of fraud and economic exploitation. Do not lie. This is sometimes interpreted as including name calling, gossip, etc. Do not misuse sex. For monks and nuns, this means any departure from complete celibacy. For the laity, adultery is forbidden, along with any sexual harassment or exploitation, including that within marriage. The Buddha did not discuss consensual premarital sex within a committed relationship; Buddhist traditions differ on this. Do not consume alcohol or other drugs. The main concern here is that intoxicants cloud the mind. Some have included as a drug other methods of divorcing ourselves from reality -- e.g. movies, television, the Internet. The Buddha's Eightfold Path consists of: Panna: Discernment, wisdom: 1) Samma ditthi Right Understanding of the Four Noble Truths 2) Samma sankappa: Right thinking; following the right path in life Sila: Virtue, morality: 3) Samma vaca: Right speech: no lying, criticism, condemning, gossip, harsh language 4) Samma kammanta Right conduct by following the Five Precepts 5) Samma ajiva: Right livelihood; support yourself without harming others Samadhi: Concentration, meditation: 6) Samma vayama Right Effort: promote good thoughts; conquer evil thoughts 7) Samma sati Right Mindfulness: Become aware of your body, mind and feelings 8) Samma samadhi Right Concentration: Meditate to achieve a higher state of consciousness

Feeling Under the Weather

2007-02-08T23:25:00.000-05:00

Well I don't know if it is the cold weather, the lack of Vitamin D (sunlight), or maybe my body still getting used to exercising. But the last couple of days have had a toll on my body. I couldn't pinpoint any one discomfort, but all in all, I am just feeling yucky. My body is achy, I have a fever, no energy (not that I have much of that to begin with lol). Well I guess the first thing I can do to help myself out, is to stop whinning. But even the best of patients needs a little whin time every now and then. I guess the next best thing to do is eat a couple oranges, and get a little more sleep. The difficult thing is always placing blame on the Sarcoidosis. Maybe I am just getting a normal little bug. And not that my lovely disease is creating havoc once again. And how I am feeling emotionally, maybe my Bi-polar is deciding to start a rollercoaster ride. Like I need anymore peaks and valleys to control. Well I should head to bed now, especially since I didn't sleep well last night. But on a good note. Tomorrow is Friday. And a whole new day to live. “The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles, but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly.” Buddha

Tai Chi

2007-02-05T13:12:00.000-05:00

Historically, T'ai Chi Ch'uan has been regarded as a martial art, but some call it a form of moving meditation. Chi is considered the energy that surrounds us all, and Tai Chi is the moving of this energy to better control it and focus on it. I was lucky enough to go to a Tai Chi workshop on Saturday. I found it wonderful, but it is definitely an exercise that takes practice. There are many different steps and forms remember. Which arm goes up with which leg etc. I can truly see the emotional strenght and healing that can come from Tai Chi. You are able to focus on yourself and get right into the movements. It seems Tai Chi is not for everyone. Kathie went with me to the workshop and didn't really like it. But she is looking forward to Yoga starting on Sunday. There is a Tai Chi class being offered up at the Senior's Centre here in Ridgetown every Friday morning at 10:00am. I think I am going to go up there this Friday and see how the class is. This looks like something that I would like to learn more off and perfect it. But I wonder, is it going to be too confusing for me to do Tai Chi and Yoga at the same time? We will just have to wait and see. On a different topic (but a happy one). I lost another 2 lbs last week. I was very happy this morning on weigh in day when I saw the scale go down. Lets hope next week is just as wonderful. Either you decide to stay in the shallow end of the pool or you go out in the ocean. Christopher Reeve

Cat or Dog

2007-01-30T23:05:00.000-05:00

You Are: 20% Dog, 80% Cat

You are are almost exactly like a cat. You're intelligent, independent, and set on getting your way. And there's no way you're going to fetch a paper for anyone!

Are You More Cat or Dog?

When Is It My Time on the Computer?

2007-01-30T22:46:00.000-05:00

Well, I have made it back. But I have to literally beg the kids to let me on the computer. lol. You would think that someone who stays home would have all the time in the world to play on the PC, but that is not how it is for me. Unless I give up more sleep. Here it is almost 11pm and I am just done checking me emails. Someone is on here till atleast 10pm every night. (sometimes lately when it is Chetasia's day) Now with me exercising, that takes up a couple of hours of my free time. And I don't want to pick the computer over spending time with Mike before he goes to work. So alas, I have settled to be at the kids commands, and waiting my turn to play. I guess homework does take presidence (sp?)Here's to owning my own (preferable laptop) computer in the future. Then I will have excuses to not updating my blog and returning my email. lol

2007-01-28T12:48:00.000-05:00

Well it has been one full week of exercising. And I actually am looking forward to going back next week. So I guess it hasn't been that bad. There were a few times, I had to back off because of my raised heart rate. But all in all, things are looking good and I feel great. The only problem is my target heart rate is suppose to be 120 bpm when exercising. This is where I should be to lose the most fat. Well my normal heart rate doesn't usually start till 125 bmp, and I know that I have not been losing fat at this rate. lol When it gets up to 165 bmp exercising, that is when I get nervous. But here's hoping that with the weight falling off, that maybe I can get my heart rate down to a sensible normal like the rest of the world. Tomorrow is weight day, and I can't wait to see where I am at. Here's praying for good news.

1st Day of Exercise

2007-01-22T23:09:00.000-05:00

Today was my hubby and mine's first day of exercising. We were shown 'the ropes' of the gym. We were very excited for our first day. Full of excitement, and a little bit scared. We listened and learnt well. I think we will be ready for Wednesday. I hope our muscles will be as well. It is bedtime, and my legs are feeling alittle stiff right now. But I am ready to continue my new healthier life. And on a great note......I have lost 12 lbs so far since Christmas. I will have my diabetes under control in no time. Here's to many more days of exercising.......

Meditation

2007-01-21T22:15:00.000-05:00

What a wonderful thing meditation is. It grounds you, clears your head, and helps you figure out your questions in life. Everyone should be meditating. There would be less anger in people and more understanding. I have meditated on and off over the years. But Saturday, I went to a workshop to learn how to meditate. It was a great experience. And has rejuvenated my need to meditate on a regular business. There are lots of great books, and CD's out there to help you start. But after sticking to it, you will wonder how you lived without. Happy Meditating....... next comes Yoga, this will be an experience.....lol

Where is the Snow?

2007-01-14T23:21:00.000-05:00

Well it is almost January 14th and we still have no snow. There was talk of a winter storm on Saturday night. But only ice came. I am sure others are loving this warmer winter season, but the snow makes me happy and I miss it. I think I saw on the weather network that there may be some flurries this week. Here is hoping. (of course when it turns to slush it can leave again). lol

Buddha Quotes

2007-01-06T20:04:00.000-05:00

Some Great Buddha Quotes

An idea that is developed and put into action is more important than an idea that exists only as an idea. Buddha

Believe nothing, no matter where you read it, or who said it, no matter if I have said it, unless it agrees with your own reason and your own common sense. Buddha

You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection. Buddha

Great Bipolar Website

2007-01-04T15:37:00.000-05:00

Mental illnesses when spoken about bring many different feelings. What do you think about when you say depression. Are you afraid to talk about this topic. Afraid to admit that you may suffer from a mental illness. I am not.......! I have depression, I am bipolar. These are not things that I picked to have, or are they things I can stop. This is no different than having Diabetes. A disease that you can't see but that has to be taken serious. Here is a great website for Bipolar. www.bipolar.com I am hoping that many check out the website and maybe learn a little more about being bipolar. Especially my family and friends. So that when we discuss how I am doing, there won't be the feelings of denial or disgust. But with the feelings of love and understanding.

A New Beginning

2007-01-03T16:34:00.000-05:00

I have finally taken the plunge and started my own blog. Hopefully I can keep it running well, and have it be entertaining and informative. This space will allow me to post about my family, about my health, and about my beliefs. Please come be a part of my life, and learn to believe along the way.